This isn’t a New Year’s Resolution. That title question is something that isn’t a good one for everyone because sometimes it may be impossible to stick with. Even harder to follow than sticking to a diet. That is usually rated as the number one resolution, and it also ranks as the number one failure.

I can control my eating habits and the proof of that assertion is that I lost a pound and a half consistently from December 2016 until I attained my target goal, which was lowered five pounds when I discovered I had lost a half inch height because of aging. And I had to lower my target goal weight because of my lower stature. I reached my new target in March of 2018 and held within a pound of it for half a year.

Unfortunately, about that time my age-related disease for males caught up with me and I was diagnosed with prostate cancer. Eighty percent of men age eighty have a PSA (Prostate Specific Antigen) score that indicates prostate cancer. Usually, the prognosis is to watch and wait because most of those cancers are slow growing. Mine was tested and was found to be rapidly growing and aggressive. The treatment started two months later, after hormone therapy was begun, was forty-four radiation treatments. Those were easy to endure but at the end of them there were many dead cancer cells in my body and that takes two or three months to totally clear out. There wasn’t any pain in my case, but there was general fatigue. I was still strong for an hour or two of physical work, but that was it, and I had to rest. I am mostly past that phase but am still feeling easily tired.

Moving on … because I researched that physical-fatigue problem I decided to gain some weight to help my body cope with the stresses. I gained twelve pounds and nine days ago decided the disease phase of my problem was over and it was time to lose that extra weight. I am confident I can do that … so I return to my opening question. What to do in 2019 that is important?

My answer to myself, and you might consider it too is – Take responsibility for my actions. Hmm. What does that mean? It’s easy to say, but what does it mean for me?

I wrote the above excessively self-congratulatory statement about myself to demonstrate to myself, … This is a diary after all … Is anyone ever going to look at it? I doubt it. It will be a daily chore to work that out and perhaps that should be my resolution.

Seek out and pay attention to what I should be doing.